PILGRIMAGE SITES

Guru Rinpoche graced many places across the globe for the well being of sentient beings. One of its kind is “Tsho Pema” Rewalsar, Himachal Pradhesh, India…

According to the history, Tsho Pema was magical water transformed by Guru Padma Sambhava when Gyab Zhazor intended to burn him alive on pyre.

  Tso Pema (courtesy of Angus Moore)

Tso Pema (Wyl. mtsho pad+ma) 'Lotus Lake' in Rewalsar, India, where Guru Rinpoche performed the miracle of transforming the funeral pyre into a lake, after the King of Zahor attempted to burn him and Princess Mandarava alive.

As it says in A Great Treasure of Blessings:

Returning to Zahor, Padmasambhava took the royal princess Mandarava as his consort, and they then went to the Maratika cave, where for three months they practised the sadhana of longevity. The Buddha of Limitless Life, Amitayus appeared, empowered them with longevity, and blessed them as inseparable from him. They both accomplished the second vidyadhara level, ‘vidyadhara with mastery over life’.

The king of Zahor and his ministers arrested Guru Rinpoche and Mandarava and burned him alive, but he transformed the pyre into a lake, and was found sitting, cool and fresh, on a lotus blossom in its centre. This lake is considered to be the Rewalsar Lake, ‘Tso Pema’, in the present-day Indian state of Himachal Pradesh. Overcome with remorse, and in homage, the king offered Padmasambhava his entire kingdom, beginning with his garments and his five royal robes.

Buddhism in the Indian state of Himachal Pradesh can be traced back to the spread of Buddhism in the early 8th century. Over the centuries this activity has become deeper rooted, particularly in the Lahaul, Spiti and Kinnaur valleys of Himachal Pradesh. After the 14th Dalai Lama, Tenzin Gyatso, escaped from Tibet with his followers in 1959 and took refuge in India, the focus on Tibetan Buddhism spread further and attracted immense international sympathy and support. The Dalai Lama found Dharamshala in Himachal Pradesh as an ideal place to establish his “capital in exile” at McLeod Ganj in close vicinity to Dharamshala, and is called the Little Lhasa and also as Dhasa (a combination of Dharamshala and Lhasa in Tibet). This situation has given the state a unique status in the global firmament of Buddhist traditions. It is now the cradle of Tibetan Buddhism, with its undeniable link to the past activities initiated in the 8th century (in 747 AD) by Guru Padmasambhava (who went to Tibet from Rewalsar in Himachal Pradesh in North India to spread Buddhism), who was known as the "Guru Rinpoche" and the “Second Buddha”.

The influence of Buddhism is strong throughout the Trans-Himalayan region or Western Himalayas, formed by the Indian states of Jammu and Kashmir and Himachal Pradesh and bounded by the Indus River on the extreme west and the Tons-Yamuna River gorge on the east. With the influx of Tibetan refugees into India, in the last over 50 years (since 1959), popularity and practice of Tibetan Buddhism has been notable. Apart from the original practitioners of Tibetan Buddhism in ancient and medieval India, it is now seriously pursued by Tibetans re-settled at Dharamshala (the nodal centre and the 'capital in exile' of the Dalai Lama were initially re-settled) in Himachal Pradesh, Dehradun (Uttar Pradesh), Kushalnagar (Karnataka), Darjeeling (West Bengal), Arunachal Pradesh, Sikkim and Ladakh.

 

Overview

After a lull in the spread of Buddhism in the state during the 10th century, the Tibetan King Yeshe Od of Guge took the initiative to revive it. Of the 21 scholars he had sent to revive Buddhism in the Trans Himalayan region, only two had survived, and one of them was the famous scholar-translator Rinchen Zangpo who transfused Buddhist activity in the state of Himachal Pradesh. Known by the epithet “Lohtsawa” or the “Great Translator”, Zangpo built 108 monasteries in the trans-Himalayan region to spread Buddhism, which are considered as the main stay of Vajrayana of Tibetan Buddhism (also known as Lamaism). He institutionalised Buddhism in this region. Zangpo had engaged Kashmiri artists who created wall paintings and sculptures in these legendary 108 monasteries; only a few of these have survived in Himachal Pradesh namely, the Lhalung Monastery, Nako Gompa in Spiti and Tabo Monastery in Spiti, the last named monastery is known as the Ajanta of the Himalayas. In Himachal Pradesh, apart from these ancient Buddhist monasteries set up by Zangpo, his contemporaries of other Buddhist sects built many more monasteries. This activity thus further continued in the subsequent centuries under the four main traditions of Nyingma, Kagyu, Gelug, and Sakya, categorised as per teachings into three "vehicles":Hinayana, Mahayana, and Vajrayana. These monasteries are mostly in the Spiti, Lahaul and Kinnaur valleys. Some of the well known monasteries are Gandhola Monastery (Drukpa Kargyu sect) Guru Ghantal Monastery, Kardang Monastery (Drukpa sect), Shashur Monastery, Tayul Monastery and Gemur Monastery in the Lahaul Valley, Dhankar Monastery, Kaza Monastery, Kye Monastery, Tangyud Monastery (Sakya sect), Kungri Monastery (of the Nyingma sect), Kardang Monastery (Drukpa Kagyu sect) and Kibber Monastery in the Spiti Valley, and the Bir Monasteries (Bir Tibetan monasteries of the Nyingma, Kagyu and Sakya sects) in the Kangra valley.

 

History

The very earliest influence of Buddhism in Himachal Pradesh is traced to the Ashokan period in the 3rd century BC. He had established many stupas, and one of them was traced to the state in the Kulu valley, as cited in the chronicles of the Chinese travellers. Mention is also made of a much earlier propagation during Buddha’s time itself by Sthavira Angira and Stavira Kanakavatsa, in the Kailash area and Kashmir respectively. In the 7th century, King Songtsen Gampo of Tibet had deputed Thomi Sambota to visit Buddhist Viharas in India to imbibe more of Indian Buddhist knowledge. It was in 749 AD that Padmasambhava (hailed as the second Buddha) with his compatriot Shantarakshita established the Vajrayana Buddhism in the Western Himalayan region.Rewalsar lake at Rewalsar in Mandi district is where Padmasambhava (literal meaning "lotus born") is said to have meditated for long years. At Rewalsar, there is also a strange legend of his life linked to the local King, his daughter and the lake. It is one of the most ancient links to Tibetan Buddhism in Himachal Pradesh where Buddhists undertake parikrama of the lake on religious pilgrimage.

Archaeological evidence in Himachal Pradesh offers strong evidence of Buddhist influence. Numismatic evidence has established the presence of Buddhism in the Kuluta region (upper Beas region of the Kuluta Kingdom) of the state in the 1st century BC and 2nd century AD. On the Palampur-Malan- Dadh-Dharamshala road,2.5 kilometres (1.6 mi) from Malan rock inscriptions in Brahmi and Kharoshti scripts of 3rd and 2nd century BC have been discovered on a single granite rock known as Lakhina pathar, which are supported by the Buddhist monuments at Chahri; inscribed pedestals of Vajravarahi (Buddhist tantric goddess) is dated to 5th or early 6th century. Handa’s archaeological explorations have also unearthed a headless stone image of Buddha (now in the Kangra Museum) at sites of Chetru and Kanhiara villages; Chetru in local lingua is interpreted as Chaitya in Sanskrit. Names such as Matth and Trilokinath and dozen maths in Kangra and Mandi districts further point to Buddhist establishments between the 3rd century BC and 6th century AD. Cave type (guha type) Buddhist monastery at Gandhala has been inferred from a copper lot (pot), chased with Jataka episode discovered in a monastic cell in Kullu subdivision of the Kangra division which is dated to 2nd century AD. Trilokinath and Gandhala (also known as Guru Ghantal), beyond Rohtang la pass are considered classical Buddhist shrines of Indian Buddhism (inferred to predate Padmasmbhava’s times by many centuries). Discovery of marble head (7th or 8th century AD) of Avalokiteshvara at the confluence of Chandra and Bhagha Rivers support evidence of monastic activities in these remote regions.

 

Archaeological evidence also supports the influence of Vajrayana Buddhism influence prior to 8th century in the region east of Sutlej river. Cult powers of Padmasambhava, before he went to Tibet (before 747 AD), are also deciphered from legends at Nako in Kinnaur, Trilokinath and Gandhala in Lahaul, and Rewalsar in Mandi district. From mid 8th century (after 747 AD) evidence of Buddhist activities remain obscure till Tibetan Buddhism penetrated the region in the 10th century.

Rinchen Zangpo was urged by Buddhist Guru Shantarakshita from Kashmir, who had already established a monastic order in Tibet, to travel around to spread Buddhism in the trans-Himalayan region. At that time, Zangpo was teaching in Kashmir. He embarked on his campaign to teach Buddhism in the trans-Himalayan region by travelling through Lahaul, Spiti and Kinnaur valleys of the Sutlej River valley, in Himachal Pradesh, then to Ladakh and further on to Tibet, Nepal, Sikkim and Bhutan. He established Buddhist Dharma in all these regions. This period was called the "Second Coming" of Buddhism in the region since earlier efforts made had not progressed much. It is said that Zangpo’s persistence of amalgamating Tibetan Buddhism into the Indian creed was the “Second Advancement” or “Second Coming”, also called the “Classical Period”. Since then, Tibetan Buddhism has also imbibed many of the religious practices and culture of India. Buddhist monastic art and architecture thus went through a sea change.

Another Buddhist Tantric Guru Deepankara Srijnana (Atisha) (982-1054) was held in high esteem during the period of Zangpo. He had a great influence on Zangpo in teaching the finer aspects of Tantric texts in Sanskrit and the translated texts in Tibetan. Under Atisha's influence there was conceptual reformation of primitive Buddhism in Tibet into the Mahayana Buddhism, which laid stress on “celibacy and morality”. This resulted in the evolution of a reformed sect known as Kahdampa, which eventually got subsumed under the Gelukpa sect. This reformation also caused further break-up of Buddhism under several sects and sub sects. The Kings of Guge had a significant role in propagation of the religion, which had strong influence on the architectural planning of Tibetan monasteries. One of the Guge brothers, Chang chub-O, had even got the Tabo Monastery in Spiti refurbished. But Tibet was fragmented under the influence of its various sects and subsets, which attracted Mongol invasion. Three events in the 13th century had profound effect on Tibetan Buddhism; one was Chengiz Khan’s invasion of Tibet in 1206; the second event in the second half of thirteenth century was that of the then Chinese ruler Kublai Khan’s (of Yunan, who later became a Buddhist); and the third of Kashmir, which until then had been a strong hold of Buddhism, going under Muslim rule after 1339, putting an end to cultural communication with India. Mongol invasion is also credited with uniting Tibet under the institution of the Dalai Lama. While the Mongols favored the Sakya sect, the Ming dynasty (Chinese) favored Kargyupa and Kahdampa sects; but these actions resulted in inter-sectoral rivalry and even destruction of each others' monasteries. It was during this period that monasteries were also built on hilltops and many were also well fortified. The period between 1300 AD and 1850 AD marked the development of hill-top monasteries and examples of this type in the western Himalayan region are the Ki Monastery in Spiti and the Hemis Monastery in Ladakh.

Thus, from the 14th century onwards, the monasteries had adopted a fort like design for its buildings from logistic considerations and built them as “religion-military strongholds”; many of them have disappeared due to invasions but some have survived in Ladakh and Spiti valleys in India. Zangpo’s “Classical monasteries” in Western Tibet, in Lahaul, Spiti and Kinnaur in Himachal Pradesh, and in Ladakh have survived and are fairly well preserved for posterity. However, instances of greed and neglect have been reported in some monasteries.

 

Tibetan immigration

The Khadamp sect, which was reorganised as “Gelukpa sect” at the start of the 15th century by Tsongkhapa has dominated Tibet and became the “Spiritual and Temporal Authority of Tibet” with the Dalai Lama invested with full authority of this sect. While the founder Lama of Gelukpa sect was Tsongkhapa, his nephew Gendun Drup was the first Grand Lama and since then the mantle has been passed on to the subsequent Lamas under a Reincarnation theory of succession. The fifth Dalai Lama subsumed all of the other sub-sects under his control, with his headquarters at Lhasa as the supreme head of Buddhism in Tibet. The Dalai Lamas also held some political power in certain areas of Tibet until the 14th Dalai Lama immigrated to India in 1959.

The 14th Dalai Lama established his "Government in exile", in 1960 at Mcleod Ganj in the upper part of the town of Dharamshala. This has since become the nerve centre of Tibetan Buddhism with the Tibetan refugees establishing monasteries of their sects, such as the Gelukpa, Sakyapa, Kargyupa, Nyingmapa, Chonangpa and Dragung-Kargyupa; Non-Buddhist of Bön religion also have established their monastery here. Over 40 monasteries (unofficial records) of these sects have been reported.

In order to educate ethnic Tibetan youths in Dharamshala and the Himalayan border students of India, the Central Institute of Higher Tibetan Studies (CIHTS) was established at Varanasi by Pt. Jawahar Lal Nehru in consultation with the Dalai Lama. The Institute, a Deemed University since 1988, is currently headed by Prof. Ngawang Samten, assisted by faculty members of the Institute. Its primary goal is to achieve excellence in the field of Tibetology, Buddhology and Himalayan Studies.

Earliest lake and monasteries

The earliest reverential link according to Padmasmabhava's legend is to the Rewalsar lake at Rewalsar in Mandi district of Himachal Pradesh where Padmasambhava is said to have meditated. There are three monasteries located here namely, the ancient Nyingmapa Monastery on periphery of the Rewalsar lake and two new monasteries (of modern construction) namely, the Drigung Kargypa Monastery (a multistoreyed complex behind the ancient monastery) of the Kargyupa order and Tso-Pema Ogyen Heru-kai Nyingmapa Gompa.

 

Rewalsar

Rewalsar has an ancient divine link for the Buddhists as it is believed that Guru Padmasambhava set out from here on his journey to Tibet to propagate Buddhist dharma. The Rewalsar Lake ('Tso Pema' or 'Pad-ma-can' to Tibetans) has a legend that started the belief that on the islands of floating reeds of the lake the spirit of Padmasambhava's resides. According to folk legend, Padmasmabhava tried to teach Buddhist dharma to the daughter (Mandarava) of the King of Mandi, Arshadhara of Sahor, which was seriously resented by the King. It is also mentioned that Mandarva was enamored of Padmasambhava of Nalanda. The King, therefore, ordered Padmasambhava to be burnt alive. However, the pyre burned for a full week, with great clouds of black smoke arising from it and a lake appeared there after a week at the spot where he was supposed to have been burnt. Then, Padmasambhava (also known as Vajracharya), unscathed by the fire, is said to have appeared seated on a full-blown lotus from within a lotus in the middle of the lake. One version states that the King, as a repentance for his wrong actions, married his daughter with Padmasambhava. Another version states that Mandarava (stated to be the sister of Shantarakshita) as repentance, left her parents' house, and meditated near a well, which has now become a shrine (worshipped by Tibetan Buddhists as a manifestation of Shakthi). It was from this lake that Padmasambhava travelled to Tibet to spread the Vajrayana Buddhism. Rawalsar has two monasteries, namely, the Drikung Kadyud Gompa and Tso-Pema Ogyen Heru-kai Nyingmapa Gompa.

To commemorate Padmasmabahava (so named after he emerged from the Padmacan lake or lotus lake), a monastery was built on the western shore of the lake, called the Nyingmapa Monastery (built in Central Tibetan fashion), which has been expanded manifold into a multistoreyed pagoda type structure, with several renovations done till late 19th century. A large gilded statue of Padmasambahava in the formal attire as the manifestation of Guru Rinpoche is deified here. There are two other new monasteries built around the ancient monastery; these are the Drigung Karagypa Monastery of the Kargyupa order and the other monastery called the Tso-Pema Ogyen Heru-kai Nyingmapa Gompa of the Drigungpa sect, a branch of the Kargyupa order; though of modern construction these two have retained the aesthetic Tibetan architectural ambience.

In 2004, to commemorate the birthday of Padmasambhava, the Tsechu fair was held here, after a gap of 12 years. The fair was inaugurated by the Dalai Lama and was attended by Urgyen Trinley Dorje Karmapa along with 50,000 other Buddhist pilgrims. The Dalai Lama also performed a parikrama (circumambulation) of the lake.

 

Rinchen Zangpo's monasteries

Rinchen Zangpo, the famous scholar-translator, established 108 monasteries during his mission undertaken in the 10th century to propagate Buddhist Dharma in the Trans-Himalayan region. A few of them, which have survived in Himachal Pradesh, present exquisite monasteries of artistic and architectural excellence in Lahaul, Spiti and Kinnaur valleys of the Sutlej River valley, such as the Tabo monastery, Lhalung monastery and Nako monastery.

 

Tabo monastery

Tabo Monastery (or Tabo Chos-Khor Monastery) was founded in 996 AD (and refurbished in 1042 AD) by Rinchen Zangpo; it is considered the oldest monastery in Himachal Pradesh. It located at the southern edge of the Trans Himalayan plateau in the Spiti Valley on the banks of the Spiti River, in the very arid, cold and rocky area at an altitude of 3,050 metres (10,010 ft). The sprawling monastery, spread over an area of 6,300 square metres (68,000 sq ft), has nine temples - the Temple of the Enlightened Gods (gTug-Lha-khang), the Golden Temple (gSer-khang), the Initiation Temple (dKyil-kHor- khang), the Bodhisattva Maitreya Temple (Byams-Pa Chen-po Lha-khang), the Temple of Dromton (Brom-ston Lha khang), the Chamber of Picture Treasures (Z'al-ma), the Large Temple of Dromton (Brom-ston Lha khang), the Mahakala Vajra Bhairava Temple (Gon-khang) and the White Temple (dKar-abyum Lha-Khang) (out of these nine, the first four are considered the oldest temples while the others were later additions) - 23 chortens, monks' residences and an extension that houses the nuns' residence. It was initially an important centre of learning of the Kadampa order, which later developed into the Gelukpa order. It was severely damaged in the 1975 Earthquake and has since been re-built with a new Dukhang (assembly hall). H.H. the Dalai Lama held the Kalachakra ceremonies here in 1983 and 1996. The year 1996 marked 1000 years of Tabo Monastery's existence. A number of caves carved into the cliff face are located above the monastery, which are used by monks for meditation. The monastery is studded with large collection of precious Thangka (scroll paintings), manuscripts, well-preserved statues, frescos and extensive murals that cover almost every wall. The monastery is a national historic treasure of India and preserved by the Archaeological Survey of India.

The few original paintings of Bodhisattvas, from the period of the renovation of Tabo monastery in 1042, seen in the Dukong (assembly hall), are similar in style to those seen at Alchi Monastery in its aesthetic elegance. These have a gentle form with stress on unique detailing of textiles and ornaments. The paintings in the assembly hall are dedicated to Vairochana. Also seen are paintings of two narrative sequences namely, the first narrative is about the visit by Sudhana, a merchant’s son, deputed by Bodhisatva Manjushri, on a spiritual mission, while the second narrative depicts the life of the Buddha. His Holiness the Dalai Lama has expressed his desire to retire to Tabo, since he maintains that the Tabo Monastery is one of the holiest.

It is a World Heritage Site listed by UNESCO. Its sanctity in the Trans Himalayan Buddhism is considered as second only to that of the Tholing Monastery in Tibet.

 

Lhalung monastery

Lhalung Monastery, Lhalun Monastery or Lalung Monastery (also known as the Sarkhang or Golden Temple), one of the earliest monasteries (considered second to Tabo monastery in importance) founded in Spiti valley, near the Lingti river. It is dated to the late 10th century and credited to Rinchen Zangpo. Village of Lhalung ( meaning: 'land of the gods') in the vicinity of the monastery, at an altitude of 3,658 metres (12,001 ft), has 45 homes. A few chortens are located on the way to the monastery. It is said that the Lhalung Devta is head of all the Devtas of the valley and emerges from the Tangmar mountain beyond the village. It was a complex of nine shrines enclosed within a dilapidated wall with the main chapel richly decorated. The monastery is inferred as an ancient centre of learning and debate (local name: Choshore) on the basis of old ruins of several temples seen around the five buildings of the monastery, apart from an equally ancient sacred tree. Serkhang, the golden hall of the temple complex has is studded with images (most of them gilded) of deities (51 deities) - mounted on walls or erected on a central altar.

 

Nako monastery

The Nako monastery is located (3,660 metres (12,010 ft)) near the India-China border in the trans-Himalayan region in Nako village in Kinnaur district at its western edge. The monastery complex in the village has four temples in an enclosure built with mud walls. It is also dated to the second coming of Buddhism to the region and is credited to Rinchen Zangpo. The area is known for the Nako Lake, which forms part of the border of the village.

Though the monastery complex looks simple from outside, in the interiors of the complex, the wall paintings in the monastery are delicately executed. Influence of the Ajanta style of painting, is distinct “in the tonal variation of body hues to produce an effect of light and shade”. The elegant divine figures have placid expressions, a reflection of the finest classical art of India.

The four temples are well preserved; the main temple and the upper temple considered the oldest of the four structures have the original clay sculptures, murals and ceiling panels - larger temple of these two is known as the 'Translator's Temple'; the third structure is a small white temple, partly dilapidated, has a wooden door frame depicting scenes of the Life of the Buddha carved on the lintel; and the fourth structure is of the same size as the Upper Temple and is also situated next to it, which is known as "rGya-dpag-pa'i lHa-khang" meaning temple of wide proportions.

An impression of a foot found near the Nako Lake is ascribed to Guru Padmasambhava. In a nearby village called Tashigang, several caves are found where it is said Guru Padmasambhava meditated and gave discourse to his disciples. An image is stated to grow hair.

 

Fourteenth century and later monasteries

The trend of building fortified Buddhist monasteries was started from 14th century onwards. However, very few have survived. Of these, Tangyud monastery, Dhankar monastery and Key monastery in Spiti valley are some of the well known ones.

 

Tangyud Monastery

The Tangyud Monastery in the Spiti valley was built in the early 14th century when the Sakyapas rose to power under Mongol patronage. It is built like a fortified castle on the edge of a deep canyon, with massive slanted mud walls and battlements with vertical red ochre and white vertical stripes which make them look much taller than they really are. It is at an altitude of 4,587 metres (15,049 ft), on the edge of a deep canyon and overlooking the town of Kaza, 4 kilometres (2.5 mi) from the town. It is one of only two monasteries belonging to the Sakya sect left in Spiti - the other, at Kaza itself, is small and relatively insignificant. It is thought, however, that there was an earlier Kadampa establishment here founded by Rinchen Zangpo (958-1055 AD) and named Rador-lha. The name, Tangyud, may refer to the Sakya revision of the Tang-rGyud, or the 87 volumes of Tantra treatises which form part of the Tengyur; this was done around 1310 AD by a team of scholars under the Sakya lama, Ch'os-Kyi-O'd-zer. The unplanned arrangement of the monastery is attributed to several modifications carried out after it was ransacked by invasions of Central Tibet by Mongols, in 1655 AD. The monastery is also famous for the expertise of the Sakyapa tantric cult that even dacoits are scared to rob this monastery.

Dhankar Monastery

Dhankar Monastery also spelt Drangkhar or Dhangkar Gompa; Brang-mkhar or Grang-mkhar, situated in the Spiti Valley between the towns of Kaza and Tabo at an elevation of 3,894 metres (12,776 ft) is a fort monastery similar to the Key Monastery and Tangyud Monastery in Spiti built in the Central Tibetan pattern.^[34] Dhankar was the traditional capital of the Spiti Valley Kingdom during the 17th century. The complex is built on a 300 metres (980 ft) high spur overlooking the confluence of the Spiti River and Pin River - one of the world's most spectacular settings for a gompa. Dhang or dang means cliff, and kar or khar means fort. Hence, Dhangkar means fort on a cliff. It belongs to the Gelukpa order but claims to its earlier founding in the 12th century has put forth by the local monks. Below this Gompa is the small village of Shichilling where the new Dhankar Monastery has been built. It is home to about 150 monks belonging to the Gelukpa sect of Tibetan Buddhism. Dhankar is approachable by a road, good for small vehicles only, that branches off for Dhankar from the main Kaza-Samdu road at a point around 24 kilometres (15 mi) from Kaza.

In 2006, World Monuments Fund selected Dhankar gompa as one of the 100 most endangered sites in the world. A non-profit group, Dhangkar Initiative, is attempting to organize its conservation.

 

Key Monastery

The earliest history of Key Monastery is traced to Dromtön (Brom-ston, 1008-1064 CE), a pupil of the famous teacher, Atisha, in the 11th century. This however, refers to destroyed Kadampa monastery at the nearby village of Rangrik, which was probably destroyed in the 14th century when the Sakya sect rose to power with Mongol assistance. In the wake of the Chinese influence, it was rebuilt during the 14th century as an outstanding example of the monastic architecture.

In the 17th century, during the reign of the Fifth Dalai Lama, Key was attacked again by the Mongols and later became a Gelugpa establishment. In 1820, it was sacked again during the wars between Ladakh and Kullu. In 1841, it was severely damaged by the Dogra army under Ghulam Khan and Rahim Khan. Later that same year it suffered more damage from a Sikh army. In the 1840s, it was also ravaged by fire and in 1975 a violent earthquake caused more damage, which was repaired with the help of the Archaeological Survey of India and the State Public Works Department. The successive trails of destruction and patch-up jobs have resulted in a haphazard growth of box-like structures, and so the monastery looks like a fort, where temples are built on top of one another. The walls of the monastery are covered by paintings and murals. It is an outstanding example of the monastic architecture, which developed during the 14th century in the wake of the Chinese influence.

Key monastery has a collection of ancient murals and books of high aesthetic value and it enshrines Buddha images and idols, in the position of Dhyana.

Monasteries in Dharamshala

Subsequent to the 14th Dalai Lama establishing his Tibetan exile government at Mcleod Ganj (a former colonial British summer picnic spot) near upper Dharamshala, the ancient Namgyal Monastery, which was first established by the third Dalai Lama in 1579 in Tibet, was relocated to Dharamshala (the district headquarters of the Kangra district), in 1959. It is now the personal monastery of the Dalai Lama. Two hundred monks and young trainee monks reside here. They pursue studies of the major texts of Buddhist Sutras and Tantras, as also the Tibetan and English Languages.

 

Tsuglagkhang

An important Buddhist shrine (located opposite to the Namgyal Monastery in the same courtyard) in the town is the Tsuglagkhang or Tsuglag Khang, known as the Dalai Lama's temple. It houses the statues, in sitting postures, of Shakyamuni (gilded)- the central image, Avalokiteśvara (the deity of compassion sculpted in silver with eleven faces and thousand arms and eyes -linked to a legend), and Padmasambhava (Guru Rinpoche) - both facing the direction of Tibet - and also the Tibetan Institute of Performing Arts. Dalai Lama's residence is opposite to this temple. A festival is held here every year, during April and May, when traditional dances and plays are enacted. 8 kilometres (5.0 mi) away from Dharamshala, at Sidhpur, a small monastery called the Gompa Dip Tse-Chok Ling, the Gangchen Kyishong (called Gangkyi in short by Tibetans and Library by Indians is the premises of the Tibetan government-in-exile), Mani Lakhang Stupa, Nechung Monastery, Norbulingka Institute, Sidhpur are located. The Karmapa (who was in Norbulinga in Tibet before taking refuge in India) is now living in Gyato monastery.

 

Kalachakra Temple

Kalachakra Temple is located adjoining the Tsulagkhang which is dedicated to the Kalachakra. The temple has fresco decorations of 722 deities of the mandala, Shakayamuni Buddha, and the central Kalachakra image. Dalai Lama personally directed the painting of the frescos done by three master painters over a period of three years. The walls and columns here have many traditional Tibetan Thangka paintings.

Library of Tibetan works and archives

A Library of Tibetan Works and Archives (LTWA) was also set up by the Dalai Lama, in June 1970, to provide exhaustive information on Buddhist and Tibetan culture. The LTWA boasts of more than 110,000 titles in the form of manuscripts (40% are the Tibetan originals, books and documents; hundreds of thangkas (Tibetan scroll paintings), statues and other artefacts; and over 6,000 photographs, and many other materials. The LTWA has nine departments guided by a governing body. The library conducts seminars, talks, meetings and discussions and also brings out an annual 'News Letter.' On the third floor of this library there is a museum (opened in 1974) that houses notable artefacts such as a three-dimensional carved wooden mandala of Avalokiteshvara and items that date back to the 12th century.

Norbulingka Institute

The Norbulingka Institute founded in 1988, by the present Dalai Lama has the primary objective of preserving the Tibetan language and cultural heritage. This institute has been patterned on the same lines as Norbulingka, the traditional summer residence of the Dalai Lamas, in Lhasa, amidst a well-maintained garden setting, and the emphasis here is more on traditional art. A temple named as the “Seat of Happiness Temple” (Deden Tsuglakhang) is located here. Around this temple, craft centres are located, which specialise in traditional forms of Thanka painting to Metal art that are considered integral to Tibetan Monastery architecture. 300 artisans work here and also impart training to their wards.

The Losel Doll Museum here has diorama displays of traditional Tibetan scenes, using miniature Tibetan dolls in traditional costumes.

A short distance from the institute lies the Dolma Ling Buddhist nunnery and the Gyato Monastery, temporary residence of the 17th Karmapa, Ogyen Trinley Dorje.

 

Festivals

Buddhist festivals held in Himachal Pradesh are predominantly connected with their religious identity. They relate to the seasons (New Year as per Lunar and Solar calendars), Buddha’s birth and death anniversaries, and also the sacred days such as the birthdays of the Bodhistavas. The annual calendar is filled with festivals and some the popular ones starting with January are the following.

In January, in the Lahaul region, a carnival called the Halda Festival is held when people carry twigs of cedar tree to a location specified by the lamas and then throw it into a bonfire accompanied by various dances.

During February/March, the Tibetan New Year is observed as Losar festival by all Tibetan Buddhists in the state with processions, music and dancing; mask dances or chaam dances are popular on this occasion. The Dalai Lama holds teaching discourses at Dharmashala during this festival.

Ki Cham festival held in June/July is specific to Ki monastery. On this occasion, whirling mask dances are held in the monastery, which is watched by people from many villages of Spiti.

An ancient practice of a trade fair called the La Darcha is held in August in Spiti. Buddhist dances and Buddhist sports are popular and held along with rural marketing fair. Its social, economic and cultural significance relates to ancient ties with Tibet. Instead of La Darch ground near the Chicham village, the festival is now held at Kaza, headquarters of Spiti subdivision.

In November, the Guktor festival is held in Dhankar monastery in Spiti when processions and mask dances are the set festive practices.

In December, the International Himalayan Festival (a three day event) is held in Mcleod Ganj, the exile capital of Tibet to celebrate the Dalai Lama getting the Noble Peace Prize. Dance and music mark the day with resolve to promote peace and cultural amity. On this occasion, the Dalai Lama blesses Mcleod Ganj. 

After completing our mid-term exams, our group of seven embarked on a pilgrimage to Dharamsala and Tso Pema. The trip was nothing short of fascinating as we visited numerous historical places blessed by Guru Rinpoche. Our aim was to cleanse ourselves of all obscurations and negative karma, and this pilgrimage provided us with the perfect opportunity to do so.

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AWAY FROM HOME

Early at 4:30 AM, I woke up after being informed by a friend that I had to report to Paro airport at 6 AM. My aunt Leymo, sister Yeshi Wangmo, and Tshering Dema accompanied at the airport to see me off. At 8:00 AM, the Druk Air flight took off towards Indra Gandhi International Airport in Delhi. It was the first time for most of us to fly in an airbus, but the Bhutanese stewards and stewardesses were kind and generous, making the experience much more pleasant. During the flight, the cabin assistant pointed out different types of mountains that are popular in the world, and we could catch a glimpse of peaks enveloped by permanent snow.

After 1 hour and 30 minutes of journey, Druk Air landed at Delhi International Airport. We proceeded to the immigration office, where we were scolded by Indian men for not being in the queue. After completing the immigration formalities, we went to the bus stop to get a ticket to go to the Domestic Air Port in Delhi. At the domestic airport's immigration office, some of our friends were asked to get a signature from the immigration officer as they did not have their passports with them. The officials checked our luggage thoroughly and found chili pickles and meat pickles in one of the ladies' bags, which they confiscated and asked her to throw away. However, upon her repeated pleas, they returned her items.

Our next flight to Amritsar was scheduled at 2:30 PM, but we arrived at 9:30 AM, well before the scheduled departure time. Therefore, we decided to have lunch before our next flight. We ordered rice with plain vegetable curry which cost us RS.170/-. We were surprised to find out that the cost of this simple meal was double the cost of rice with chicken in Bhutan. One of our friends, Norbu, ordered a cup of beer which cost him Rs.200/-. It was amazing to see that Indian sell beer in packs like that of hard drinks sold in Bhutan.

Exactly at 2:00 PM, a Spice bus picked us up to take us to the Spice Jet Port. The Spice Jet aircraft lifted into the air at 2:30 PM. It took approximately one hour and fifteen minutes to reach the Amritsar domestic air port from Delhi. From Amritsar, we were picked up by the University Bus, which took two hours to reach the university. Upon arrival, we were directed to the Admission Block where the international coordinator welcomed us and guided us to the dormitory. The coordinator informed us that without admission being done, we must pay cash to eat food from the mess, so we did in the evening. However, in the morning, we all lied and said that we were still fresh and had yet to receive our mess cards.

On 31st, we had our admission, which included submitting our original academic transcripts, migration certificate, hotel fee, tuition fee, laundry fee, and admitting into UMS (university management system). From 1st to 3rd August, we were given free time to explore the campus and nearby city. The freshmen induction course started from 4th to 6th August, which aimed to familiarize new students with the university's rules and regulations. I, a teacher in Bhutan, became a student in India commencing from 7th August. I struggled to get into the classroom situation and had to fight to concentrate on lectures. I often found myself lost in thoughts of my past school life in the 1990s, sitting back on the chair and scribbling notes from the chalkboard. Despite the difficulties, I believed that learning is a lifelong process that doesn't stop until our last breath.

 

FUNNY INCIDENCES

1.     One of our friends, Kuzang, accidentally hit his head on the glass door of a shopping mall while entering in.

2. An Assistant Lecturer from Sherubtse lost their way in the university campus while returning to apartment.

3. Several Bhutanese students were scolded by the Mess Contractor for not carrying their mess cards while attending meals.

4. On the very first day of our classes, 11 Bhutanese students got lost in the nine-storied building while trying to find the Political class.

5. Two Bhutanese Economic students got stuck in the elevator when the lights went off, and they had a near-death experience.

6. One of the History students lost their way while returning to the dormitory after class.

7. Our friend Tandin Wangchuk fell inside the Air bus toilet during turbulence.

Life Saga

The essence of life lies in the stories and experiences that shape our existence. Without them, life would be insipid and unremarkable.

 
The journey along the Sarpang-Gelephu highway never fails to transport me back to the 1990s, a time when I would trudge through the harsh winter days, carrying a heavy basket laden with four to five hundred oranges. Those were the days when I sacrificed my health for the sake of an education, sweating profusely and becoming drenched in the process.

As winter sets in and schools break for vacation, many children our age look forward to a fun and enjoyable three-month break with their parents. However, for some of us, this break is not a time to relax and have fun but was a responsibility to share the financial burden of our parents when it comes to school expenses. It is a sobering reminder that not all families can afford the cost of education, and as children, we may need to step up and contribute in any way we can to help our parents. This could mean taking on part-time jobs to generate extra income. Regardless of the approach we take, it is important to remember that education is a valuable investment in our future, and we should do our best to support our families in making it a reality. During school vacations, a group of us would travel to Sarpang for temporary work, which involved transporting oranges from off-road locations to on-road trucks. Unlike children from wealthy families, we did not have the luxury of sleeping and playing during our break. Instead, we woke up to the crowing of roosters and the soothing sound of insects. We slept under the trees, and our meals consisted of fruit items. It was a challenging and tough experience, but it was necessary to earn some money to help our destitute families. With the earnings from this job, we were able to purchase school uniforms, stationery items, and other necessities that eased the financial burden on our families. Although we returned home with sunken eyes and low energy levels at the end of the orange season, we were satisfied with our hard work and the earning generated for our education. Looking back, it is hard to believe that education cost us so much, but the experience taught us valuable lessons in resilience and determination.

My parents worked tirelessly to send me and my sister to school despite their scanty income. They believed that education was the key to a better life, and they made numerous sacrifices to ensure that we had access to it. Today, I owe everything to my parents and teachers for the person I have become. They instilled in me a love for learning and a desire to succeed that has stayed with me throughout my life. I am grateful for their unwavering support and the sacrifices they made to give me and my sister a chance at a better future. Without their guidance and encouragement, I would not be where I am today. I am proud of the hard work I put into my education, but I am also grateful for the people who helped me along the way.

In the past, many people were uneducated and did not understand the importance of education in one's life. As a result, they often discouraged their children from attending school. Unfortunately, my parents were among those who denied me the opportunity to go to school. Instead, I stayed at home and helped them look after the cattle. However, in 1990, everything changed. A new school was opened in my village under the leadership of Mr. Tshering Wormling. This was a turning point in my life. For the first time, I had the chance to attend school and receive an education. The opportunity was a dream come true for me. I worked hard to make the most of it, and with the support of my teachers and parents, I excelled academically. Looking back, I am grateful to Mr. Tshering Wormling and the people who made it possible for me to attend school. They opened up a whole new world of opportunities for me and changed the trajectory of my life. Despite my insistence, my parents initially declined to send me to school. However, seeing my friends happily attending school, I decided to join them without my parents' consent. I was ten years old when I enrolled in Khomshar Community Primary School. Although I was older than some of the students, I was not alone in that regard. After three years, I transferred to Bardho Community Primary School in 1995. The teachers at both schools were strict, and many of the students were in their twenties. The meals served were beyond imagination. For breakfast, we had porridge made from leftover food, and lunch and dinner were meager and barely enough to sustain life. During weekends, we were required to work in the teachers' fields and gardens. Sometimes, we had to go home to supplement the meals we received at school. Looking back, I realized that the school was supported by the World Food Programme, as I faintly recall seeing a signboard with the WFP logo. Boarding students were required to contribute 20 drey kharang, 10 phetas salt, and 20 kilograms of vegetables, or pay Nu.100/- in lieu of that. Day scholars paid half of that, as they only received lunch. On Saturdays, boarding students had to collect firewood and vegetables from the forest. Sometimes, the school had to close when rations ran out, and we were sent home to get additional supplies.

After our exams, all the teachers would go back to their respective villages to spend the three-month winter vacation, and the older boys were tasked with helping to carry things to the road point, which took a minimum of three days to reach Dakphel. When we returned from this task, the teachers would give us a maximum of Nu. 50/- or Nu.100/-. I completed my studies up to class six successfully in 1997. At that time, I knew nothing about love affairs, but I had a girlfriend named Karma Tshojay. During one of our breaks, we were giggling in front of the class when Mr. K.B Rai, our teacher, saw us. He scolded us, and we broke up. We didn't talk until the 15th of December.

During those times, class VI students were required to appear for the Bhutan Common Exam in December. This was an opportunity for most of us who had never seen a vehicle before to leave our confined remote areas. The Bhutan Common Exam lasted for two weeks and was conducted at Zhemgang High School. Food and lodging were provided in their hostel during the exam period. After the exams, we were paid a sum of Nu. 250/- as TA/DA, and our escort teacher told us that it was the leftover amount after deducting food and lodging expenses.

In 1999, I completed my lower secondary education from Yebilaptsa Junior High School, which was a difficult time for me. The teachers were very strict and physically abusive. The meals provided were very small and hardly enough to satisfy hunger. Most of my fellow students came from underprivileged backgrounds and could not afford to buy necessary goods. At the beginning of the school year, I would have a maximum of Nu. 1500/- which had to last until summer vacation. This was a difficult time, and I often had no choice but to steal fruits from others' orchards. However, in 2000, I joined Zhemgang Higher Secondary School in class IX, and things started to look up. We were provided with good food, including cane fish and soya beans powder with tea. I completed my education in the same school, passing class 12 in 2003.

In 2004, I received the results of my ISC exam, and although I did not qualify for higher studies, I decided to join the teaching profession. I duly filled out the necessary forms and applied to the Royal Civil Service Commission (RCSC). However, science students were prioritized and shortlisted first, and I was ranked 39th position. After the selection interview, we were called for a two-week orientation or induction course, during which we were familiarized with teaching skills and tactics in the auditorium of Motithang School.

On the last day of the orientation, we were given placement, and I was placed at Wangdi Phodrang. The Dzongkhag Education Officer then placed me at Uma Community Primary School as an apprentice teacher. The school was situated at a distance of 25 kilometers on the road from the dzongkhag, and it took three hours on foot from Baychu to reach it. I spent nine months teaching there and came to realize that teaching was not an easy job.

During my time there, I was fortunate enough to have two adopted sisters who were kind and generous to me. I attended their Choku twice.

In 2005, I joined a cohort of new B.Ed trainees at the National Institute of Education in Samtse. Life as a trainee was better than my school days, with better food, lodging, and lifestyle. However, after a few weeks, the lecturers gave us many assignments and presentations, which was initially confusing and difficult to complete due to lack of resources. Eventually, we adapted to the institute's lifestyle.

In July 2006, we were sent to different schools for teaching practice for six months. I was placed in Khuruthang Middle Secondary School in Punakha, where I stayed with my uncle and aunt at NRTI Lobesa. The school was ten kilometers away, and there were few groups of students studying at Khuruthang MSS, Punakha HSS, and Ugyen Academic who also stayed at NRTI. We had to pay Nu. 700/- per month for a private bus that transported us up and down, but we often had to take taxis that charged Nu. 25/- for one way due to the irregularity of the contract bus. I taught there for almost six months and sensed the real nature of teaching career. 

My associate teacher, Madam Tshering Lhadon, was strict and always wanted to observe my teaching, which was challenging. However, another Dzongkha associate teacher, Tashi Phuntsho, was kind and helped me a lot. The principal, Lhaki Wangmo, was authoritarian, but I enjoyed spending time with the male teachers, playing football against Punakha HSS staff and Ugyen Academic staff. We would bet on dinner, and although we often lost, the regular teachers kindly bore the cost of my share as well. We also won a game of khuru against the Academic staff. I was given a farewell on December 15th and left on the 18th.

In February 23rd 2007, all final year B.Ed students entered Samtse College of Education. Looking back at our time there, we felt as if we had done nothing worthy and had only a few months left to prepare for our future as teachers. Feeling guilty, we rushed to the library for research and learning. Most of the B.Ed final year trainees were seen inside the Library, while the fresh B.Eds were in the play fields. In December, all outgoing B.Eds gathered in the auditorium for oath taking followed by a farewell dinner. On 18th December, we departed with an office order and were asked to join respective Dzongkhags on a stipulated date. I felt as though my life had been freed from a cage since I had been in the hostel since fourth grade until the last day of B.Ed training. Financial shortage was my main problem during my learning days due to the poor family background. I had to withstand with only two to three ghos and one pair of shoes throughout the semesters. Training mates often criticized my unconditional lifestyle, and I felt mentally relieved to be passing out of college, as I would soon be employed and no longer have to depend on others.

On 7th February 2008, I attended an orientation and placement session at the Zhemgang Dzongkhag Education office. Upon checking the list, I discovered that I was placed in Kaktong CPS, which was a remote school. I pleaded with the DEO to change my placement, but he initially refused. After several attempts, I was finally granted a placement at Budashi CPS, which was much closer compared to my previous options.

After the placement, we were required to write an application to Dasho Dzongdag requesting advance salary for settlement. Fortunately, Dasho approved our request and granted us Nu. 5000/-. Additionally, my uncle, Ugyen Thinley, gave me Nu. 10000/-, which I used for shopping in Gelephu. Unfortunately, for the next four months, I had to endure a difficult life without any salary.

On 10th February, I joined a school in lower Kheng as a fresh teacher, Zhemgang. The lifestyle in lower Kheng was different from what I was accustomed to. The school was located on a table land spanning 1 acre and consisted of a one-story building with four units. The school had classes up to second grade and was headed by Pema Norbu.  I with another teacher managed the school for one and a half months until a female apprentice teacher joined  in April, which eased our burden. She was a diligent and hardworking staff member. However, in December of 2008, we had to bid her farewell as her time with us came to an end. 

In 2011, I was transferred to Tsirang Dzongkhag and was placed at Gopini CPS after the placement on 7th February. 

In 2012, I befriended Karma Lhazin, a girl who was often seen crying and seemed to be going through a lot of emotional pain. I felt empathy towards her and tried to comfort her with my moral support and sympathy. I noticed that she was sensitive and would get hurt easily over small issues. She had been suffering from chronic tonsillitis since she was very young, and doctors had advised her to undergo surgery. However, she was too timid to go through with it and would often suffer from pain. Her parents did not seem to understand her condition. She was fed up and no longer likes to mention her sickness unless it is a serious condition. Her situation is painful and pitiful for anyone who knows about it. She seems to be a love-inflicted girl who can't forget her previous boyfriend, Ugyen. She still holds onto many of his photos and dialogues recorded on her cell phone, and her love for him was intense.

In April 2012, I applied for the GoI Scholarship in humanities (social science) and was shortlisted. RCSC (Royal Civil Service Commission) called me for an interview and I got selected. On July 12th of the same year, I attended an orientation in RCSC conference hall for pre-departure briefing. I attended the orientation and was scheduled to leave on July 30th. On August 19th, I was bid farewell by the Goipini CPS family. On July 30th, I flew from Paro Airport to Delhi International Airport. On the same day, I transited from Delhi to Amritsar via Spice Jet. I was picked up by the University bus from Amritsar and joined the Lovely Professional University family.
 

On July 31st, a group of 24 Bhutanese students, including myself, were called for admission to Lovely Professional University. We thronged inside the admission hall to complete the necessary documentations. From August 1st to 3rd, we were given the freedom to loiter around the campus and the city.

From August 4th, the induction course for fresher students commenced, during which we were briefed on the Lovely Professional University Management system, hostel rules, and curriculum procedures. On August 5th, cultural affairs staged beautiful cultural items for us.

On August 6th, we had a university campus tour in the morning and a Jalandhar City tour in the evening. From August 7th, our classes begun in full swing. Once again, I was taken back to my school life but with a different mindset. Being a student at an older age was tough, and I had a difficult time coping up with the classroom settings. Nonetheless, I had to adapt to the conditions that the university aspired.

Education Tours

Wonderland

Bakhranangal

Rock garden

 

Science City

Tsho Pema

Wonderland

In July 2014, I was assigned as a science teacher at Drukjegang Higher Secondary School right after the completion of studies. The school is located 50 kilometers south of Tsirang town in Bhutan. It is situated on a table land surrounded by beautiful villages, had classes from VII to XII. During my tenure of five and a half years, I worked diligently to enhance academic excellence, promote games and sports and cultural activities, including mask dances. In 2017, the school was upgraded to a Central school and merged with nearby Pangna Primary School, making it the largest school in the area, spanning from PP to XII.

On November 25th, 2016, Dasho Dzongdag of Dagana Dzongkhag Administration conferred Khadhar and awarded certificates to the academic toppers of 2015 on behalf of His Majesty the King of Bhutan.

 

My efforts and dedication towards my work were recognized in 2019 when I secured the first position among over 200 candidates in the vice principal interview. As a result, I was transferred as the Vice Principal of Gelephu Higher Secondary School in 2020.

First love and the Last…..

In the month of February during my school days, I was a newcomer to the school atmosphere and the families of Damphu Lower Secondary School. Despite being new, I was confident in my abilities and had already excelled in various fields such as dancing, singing, games and sports, and academics.

As time went by, I started receiving letters from my classmates and other students. However, I paid no attention to them and focused on my studies and extracurricular activities. The year 2007 ended on a sweet note, and the new academic session began, which turned out to be the year of romance as well.

The hustle and bustle of school life consumed the year 2008 in a hurry. However, despite the busy schedule, I continued to participate in various activities and excel in academics. The year ended quickly, and I looked back at my achievements with pride and satisfaction.

The year 2009 began, and I had entered class nine at Damphu Higher Secondary School. After three months of schooling, I started receiving letters again, but I was unsure how to respond to them. One day, a boy named Ugyen asked for my notebook and returned it the next day, asking me to look in the middle of the pages. I found a love letter inside and told him I didn't understand what love meant. The next day, he wrote me another letter, saying he would quit school if I didn't accept him. He didn't come to school for four days, and when he returned, he asked me to go home with him after school, but I refused.

After school, I tried to run away, but Ugyen was waiting for me on the way home. My sister was with me, and he joined us. When we reached the bifurcation of our paths, he held my hand and asked if I loved him. He said he would leave school and become a hooligan if I didn't love him. I looked at my sister for advice, and she told me to say yes. I nodded my head, and the next day, he wrote me a letter expressing his pleasure and promising to attend school regularly. We became friends and shared our personal thoughts and feelings.

We promised each other to do our best in the upcoming mid-term exams, and after the exams, we parted ways for summer vacation. Ugyen went to his village, and I went to mine. We cried a lot while departing, but we hoped to see each other soon.

After a short mid-term break, school resumed as usual and we became close. He told me that he couldn't live without me by his side and started kissing me. Time passed quickly, and soon it was almost the end of September, which meant it was time for the annual school concert. As a scout leader, I had to sell tickets to the public.

At the beginning of the show, many friends were there, but after it ended, they all went away with their own boyfriends. I was left alone with nobody to accompany me home. Then, he appeared out of nowhere and offered to accompany me. I accepted, and we set off.

When we reached the forest, he asked me to rest for a while. We did, but then he started kissing and touching my breast. I didn't want to entertain him, so we continued our journey. But when we reached the middle of a thick jungle, he asked me to rest again and started kissing and molesting me.

He asked me for sex, but I refused. He became angry and pretended to leave. I begged him to accompany me home, but he refused. It was dark, and I didn't dare to go home alone. He held me tightly and kissed me for a long time. When he asked me for sex again, I refused, but he pinned me down on the ground. He kissed me and didn't allow me to shout. I tried to escape, but I couldn't move. I was completely exhausted, and tears rolled down my face without stopping. I was almost like a death drenched in my own blood.

That night was the saddest and most unforgettable night of my life. I try to forget it, but it clings to my mind and doesn't let me go. He didn't bring me home until 5 AM the next morning. I took a bath and remained sick at home for three days. I didn't look at his face or talk to him for a month. Later, he came with a sorry card.

As the annual exam approached, we made a commitment to do our best. Following the exams, my friend's sister invited me to accompany them to their village, where I stayed for two weeks and was warmly welcomed by their family. Their hospitality was truly enjoyable and I had a great time with them. Meanwhile, my friend went to work on a temporary job in Gomphu. Eventually, I returned home with his sister.

The academic session of 2010 was a significant turning point for us as we entered class ten. The days went by with a range of emotions such as happiness, sadness, frustration, tears, and loneliness. Finally, in December, we sat for the Bhutan Common Secondary Examination, and soon after, the school closed for winter holidays. We departed with heavy hearts, tears in our eyes, and exchanged gifts as a token of love. The next day, he accompanied me up to Khorsaney stream before heading back to his village for the winter break. Despite the distance between us, we kept in touch and called each other to alleviate the longing for each other's company, as the saying goes, "distance makes the heart grow fonder."

By the end of January, the results for class ten were announced and unfortunately, I did not qualify for higher studies. This news disappointed my parents and siblings, and they scolded me harshly. I confided in him, but he seemed to be more focused on his own life. He made the decision to join the police force and advised me to stay at home. He left for Thimphu and was selected for the job. On the 3rd of April, he returned to Damphu and asked me to meet him. We spent the entire night talking, crying, and making promises to remain faithful to each other. He even made a promise to light a butter lamp in front of God to bring me along with him. He recorded a song on my mobile phone so that I could listen to his voice in his absence. The next morning, at 7:30 AM on April 4th, we bid each other farewell. He left for Jigmeling for his police training.

 

After failing to qualify for higher studies, I stayed at home and helped my parents. I came up with a plan to open a shop, which my dad helped me with. A month later, I went to visit him and we stayed in touch over the phone. However, after a few months, he stopped calling me and even changed his sim card. I managed to get his new number from one of his sisters and confronted him about his behavior. I asked him why he was hurting me like this, and he responded with anger, telling me not to call him anymore and even suggesting that I marry someone else. This shattered all my hopes, especially after he had made promises in front of God about our future together. I stayed in a state of sadness and despair for a month, hoping that he would call me, but he never did. All my dreams and aspirations were shattered, leaving me with nothing but emptiness.……

I have learned a painful lesson: it's better not to fall in love if it only leads to a broken heart. Despite shedding countless tears, the pain remains. The bright days have faded away, and I am now enveloped by the darkness of terrifying nights. I cannot hold back the tears that fill my eyes or remove his image from my memory. His hurtful words are etched into my heart, and the memory of him has become a recurring nightmare that disturbs me often.

 

Although he went away and is no longer in my sight, I hold him close within my heart, keeping him hidden from the world. I had once told him not to shed any tears, as all I needed from him was his love and his smile. After all, we are all made of flesh and bone, and it is those we love and admire who reside within our hearts. We long to be close to our beloved ones, to lay our arms under their warm embrace. Unfortunately, he took all those hopes and dreams with him when he left.

It is too late for me to realize that the word "love" is filled with sorrows, jealousy, pain, tension, and regret. I have lost my faith in boys, seeing them as sharp knives that can cut a girl's heart into pieces. The idea of "true love" can only be found within the pages of a thick dictionary, but not in the hearts of human beings. In the end, even true love can lead us down the wrong paths.

 

From this moment on, I am determined to bring light into my life, clearing my mind of all negativity and replacing tears with happiness, hatred with love, and regret with contentment.

 

Personal story of Kamra Lhazin

                                                (Courtesy: Written by Karma Lhazin